jovanina doesn't live here

so leaving tomorrow morning on a trip to connecticut for a mondo pool tourney where the prize is 16,000 dollars, baby. a little nervous/reluctant about leaving my new little girly here with the 'rents from thursday morning til sunday, but when life finally gives you the one thing you've wnated, how can ya say no? or even try to complain? (the one thing being my Lucy-girl, soon to be my Zooey-bear) and oh yea, did i mention that this tourney tomorrow is a team event, and i'm going to be riding to connecticut in a motor home with five guys...? should be interesting...

to be completely honest, i would have to say i miss the being thin and not having to worry about my weight, or what i ate, even a smidge. the bills i've been dealing with, and it's nice to be able to talk to boys, and also be able to make things happen towards getting what i want.

well, as of extremely recently, tibby from the sisterhood of the travelling pants 2. but mostly and usually, anita blake, vampire hunter.

1. How's college going for you so far?

College is going. It's a lot of work, which I knew I would have troubles with from the beginning, but I think I'm making do. It's also less serious and strict than I would have imagined, which is definitely a big help because strict deadlines have never been my friend. Also, i'm kind of over it already, but really have no choice, so here i am.

2. Why all the angry status updates on Facebook about cute couples? What did cute couples ever do to you?

exist. it makes me get upset and i guess jealous when i see them, but also sad because i often wonder if maybe i'm the defective one and i don't think that i could ever have that myself.

3. Which animal is superior, cats or dogs? Please pick one and only one (no "I can't decide" copouts!) and explain your answer.

dogs. no contest. way more fun and interactive and you can do so much more with them, and their fun to train. also, chase. can't beat that.

4. Tell me about a lesson that you learned the hard way.

people are not what they seem, and they will project whatever image or persona of themselves that they think would appeal to you most, in order to reach their own ends.

5. What's your favorte movie of all time? Why is it your favorite?

Balto. i love wolves, and dogs, and talking dogs, and totally unrealistic but completely adorable love stories, and the whole hero/finding his identity thing, and it just gives me the warm & fuzzies every time i watch it.

(jeannekins this was obviously created with you in mind)

- got in a car accident. entirely my fault. my car was totaled, no one was injured.

- previous to that, was accepted at SUNY Oswego. major of zoology. orientation to commence on january 8th.

- sort of had a boyfriend, but not really. i guess you could say was seeing someone. didn't work out.

- still working at K9 Grooming in Oswego, though the car situation is proving to be annoying.

- christmas is coming, another annoyance. no shopping even close to begun, the christmas spirit seems to be eluding me this year. aggravating considering how much fun it usually is for me.

- re-learning to ice skate. not as hard as i thought, but still not an easy task. especially with such a horrible teach.

- still doing the pool thing. didn't get to shoot last night though, but not such a fan of the moose club so no big.

- missing agility. can't wait for spring.

- that's all that i can think of for now.

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
stupid boy.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
if i used one, which is never.

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
i usually get really nervous, which can result in either extreme, either i'm quiet and don't say boo and somehow come off as a colossal bitch, or i can't stop talking and ramble and say stupid things that i regret and obsess over later

4. Do you take compliments well?
i'm working on it...

5. Do you play Sudoku?
i haven't, but always wanted to try it.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
that depends on a number of different variables, such as what wilderness, season, time of the year, etc...

7. Do you like to ride?
horses, dirtbikes, or four-wheelers? d, all of the above. ;)

8. Did you ever go camping as a kid?
never. i've never been actual camping, come close a few times though.

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
honestly, i would have to say "dog".

10. If a good looking person was courting you, but you knew that he/she was married – would you play along?
maybe to a certain point, and it would also depend on the person and/or their wife.

11. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
different, yes. obsessive, no.

12. Do any songs make you cry?
sometimes. stupid girl-hormones.

13. Are you continuing your education?
soon enough.

14. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
only a few, not like any gun though.

15. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'd grab?
laptop since it's right there, then the kitties and if the dogs were in.

16. How often do you read books?
too often, sometimes i read a book a night.

17. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
mostly the present - immediate future. and i tend to dwell on the past a bit too.

18. What is your favorite children's book?
the Bremen Town Musicians i think, although there are quite a few that i love to this day.

19. What color are your eyes?
green, usually

20. How tall are you?
5'10"

21. Where is your dream house located?
Forks, Washington, or the hill that overlooks the pastures and cornfields on West Fifth St. road.

22. Do you have a secret fetish?
i could think of a few, though i'm not sure what one would define as a "fetish"

23. Have you ever tried sushi?
mhmm, loved it.

24. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
yes. and jeannekins has too, i have evidence.

25. When was the last time you were in an olive grove?
i may have been in one like 5 - 8 years ago, if that was an actual grove, because i'm not sure what really counts as an actual olive grove.

26. When was the last time you were at church?
the last time there was an Uncle Al mass, sometime over the summer i think.

27. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
work

28. What was the job you loved most?
dog-sitting, or maybe working at eckerd. idk, i always hate jobs when i have them.

29. Do you like mustard?
on some things.

30. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
depends on my mood, and the time of day/night.

31. Do you look like your mom or dad?
i would say my mom, but people are always saying i look like both my parents.

32. How long do you take to shower?
anywhere from 5 minutes - 45 minutes, depending on my mood and obligations.

33. Can you do the splits?
only a little, not nearly ass well as i used to be able to.

34. What movie do you want to see right now?
Marley & Meeeeee! or Twilight again. <3 :)

35. Would you fast-forward your life if you could?
uhhh, yea, for sure.

36. What will you do for New Year's?
uhmmm, let's see, the big family dinner party that i do every year because i have no life.

37. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
never saw it, no interest either.

38. Can you identify with one of the characters from “Mean Girls”?
yea, definitely. at least at first anyways, not after she completely changes.

39. Do you own a camera phone?
oh hell yes.

40. Do you have an “ex box” with pictures or letters of your former partners?
i don't even have a picture of him i don't think. that is to say, it's not like we were really partners so to speak, to the point of him being my "ex"

41. Was your mom a cheerleader?
hahahahaha, no.

42. What's the last letter of your middle name?
n

43. Do you like your middle name?
mhmm, i sure do. but not as much as my first.

44. How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
usually about 7 or so

45. Do you like care bears?
not really

46. What do you buy at the movies?
popcorn, usually i just get dippin' dots though

47. Do you know how to play poker?
nope.

48. Do you wear your seatbelt?
pretty much always

49. What do you wear to sleep?
not much.

50. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
big? not really. there was a dead guy found behind a building the other day. someone threatened to commit suicide, whilst standing upon their roof, sometime over the summer. it was like a block or two from my gram's, and it was a while debacle.

51. How many meals do you eat a day?
4-ish.

52. Do you have a tongue piercing?
no, too trashy.

53. Do you like funny or serious people better?
depends on my mood, usually funny.

54. Ever been to L.A.?
technically, no.

55. Did you eat a cookie today?
not a cookie, but a few mini-peanut butter cups, and some dump cake. and a chocolate 100 calorie ice cream sandwich.

56. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
pay for music? yea right.

57. Do you hate chocolate?
oh hellllls to the no, it's like my go to drug. ;)

58. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
either the uncleanliness of my room, or my diet/weight/health, or my incredibly lacking social life/interaction with any one remotely near my age, or the general failure that is my life, almost forgot the whole budget/money issue.


59. Are you a gullible person?
sometimes, way too...

60. When was the last time you cried?
last night or earlier today

61. If you could have any job you like, what would it be?
wolf photographer/researcher, professional dog agility trainer

62. Are you easy to get along with?
sometimes, yes. other times, not so much.

63. What is your favorite time of day?
night. i come alive when the moon is out, whoo whoo

Although there are many possible symptoms of Asperger’s syndrome, the main symptom is severe trouble with social situations. Your child may have mild to severe symptoms or have a few or many of these symptoms. Because of the wide variety of symptoms, no two children with Asperger's are alike.

Symptoms during childhood

Parents often first notice the symptoms of Asperger's syndrome when their child starts preschool and begins to interact with other children. Children with Asperger's syndrome may:

Not pick up on social cues and may lack inborn social skills, such as being able to read others' body language, start or maintain a conversation, and take turns talking.
Dislike any changes in routines.
Appear to lack empathy.
Be unable to recognize subtle differences in speech tone, pitch, and accent that alter the meaning of others’ speech. Thus, your child may not understand a joke or may take a sarcastic comment literally. Likewise, his or her speech may be flat and difficult to understand because it lacks tone, pitch, and accent.
Have a formal style of speaking that is advanced for his or her age. For example, the child may use the word "beckon" instead of "call" or the word "return" instead of "come back."
Avoid eye contact or stare at others.
Have unusual facial expressions or postures.
Be preoccupied with only one or few interests, which he or she may be very knowledgeable about. Many children with Asperger's syndrome are overly interested in parts of a whole or in unusual activities, such as designing houses, drawing highly detailed scenes, or studying astronomy. They may show an unusual interest in certain topics such as snakes, names of stars, or dinosaurs.2
Talk a lot, usually about a favorite subject. One-sided conversations are common. Internal thoughts are often verbalized.
Have delayed motor development. Your child may be late in learning to use a fork or spoon, ride a bike, or catch a ball. He or she may have an awkward walk. Handwriting is often poor.
Have heightened sensitivity and become overstimulated by loud noises, lights, or strong tastes or textures. For more information about these symptoms, see sensory integration dysfunction.
A child with one or two of these symptoms does not necessarily have Asperger’s syndrome. To be diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome, a child must have a combination of these symptoms and severe trouble with social situations.

Although the condition is in some ways similar to autism, a child with Asperger's syndrome typically has normal language and intellectual development. Also, those with Asperger's syndrome typically make more of an effort than those with autism to make friends and engage in activities with others.

Symptoms during adolescent and teen years

Most symptoms persist through the teen years. And although teens with Asperger's can begin to learn those social skills they lack, communication often remains difficult. They will probably continue to have difficulty "reading" others' behavior.

Your teen with Asperger's syndrome (like other teens) will want friends but may feel shy or intimidated when approaching other teens. He or she may feel "different" from others. Although most teens place emphasis on being and looking "cool," teens with Asperger's may find it frustrating and emotionally draining to try to fit in. They may be immature for their age and be naive and too trusting, which can lead to teasing and bullying.

All of these difficulties can cause teens with Asperger's to become withdrawn and socially isolated and to have depression or anxiety.3

But some teens with Asperger's syndrome are able to make and keep a few close friends through the school years. Some of the classic Asperger's traits may also work to the benefit of your teen. Teens with Asperger's are typically uninterested in following social norms, fads, or conventional thinking, allowing creative thinking and the pursuit of original interests and goals. Their preference for rules and honesty may lead them to excel in the classroom and as citizens.

Symptoms in adulthood

Asperger's syndrome is a lifelong condition, although it tends to stabilize over time, and improvements are often seen. Adults usually obtain a better understanding of their own strengths and weaknesses. They are able to learn social skills and how to read others' social cues. Many people with Asperger's syndrome marry and have children.

Some traits that are typical of Asperger's syndrome, such as attention to detail and focused interests, can increase chances of university and career success. Many people with Asperger's seem to be fascinated with technology, and a common career choice is engineering. But scientific careers are by no means the only areas where people with Asperger's excel. Indeed, many respected historical figures have had symptoms of Asperger's, including Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Albert Einstein, Marie Curie, and Thomas Jefferson.

Other conditions

Many children with Asperger's syndrome also have coexisting conditions and may have symptoms of these conditions also. They include:

Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD).
Anxiety disorder.
Depression, especially in adolescents.
Nonverbal learning disorder.
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD).
Social anxiety disorder.

and must to vent, but no time now. rain check for later. ;)

well, i personally don't have a favorite scooby snack, but if you were to ask luke i'm sure he would simply respond, "food? i'll take it!" as far as crazy adventures go, well i'd say that's a matter of opinion. some people might think it were a crazy adventure to attempt something such as dog agility. or, in previous years, make the house into a makeshift obstacle course using chairs, brooms, mops, curtain rods, tables, etc., basically whatever i could get my hands on and come up with some remote idea of making it into a trick of sorts. god knows we've gone on plenty "crazy adventures" through the woods, favorite of course being the time spent at dad's hunting camp when we were both just wandering through the woods, with really no restrictions, or civilization around. or perhaps the one that was entirely not my doing, but rather the misguided result of an inexperienced hunter not realizing there was an insufficient amount of training to take his dog out for the first time. the result of which being that my dear little lucas magucas spent a night alone, loose in the woods out in the country, toward black creek animal clinic. and jovi of course spent a night riding around in the car with mum searching high and low til quite late at night, to no avail. followed by a night of barely sleeping, and intense crying, an early morning search, and to her severe relief, victory. luke, of course, seemed none the wiser and was happy as could be.



and yes the only reson i did this particular post was because a certain person, (who shall remain nameless), saying how stupid it was. :)


also, i think that jeannekins would likely have even more to say than i do, in regards to this particular topic. i mean, chaser pup has probably been on more adventures than most children his age. lol

soooo true...i wonder if there's any where i could get such a poster...







know exactly how he feels...

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Meet Bert:




And Bobo!:





See Bert race Bobo:




See Bobo, sore loser, shaking his fist, (or perhaps flipping me off):






The spoils of victory at the totally rigged pool tables, courtesy of me mum:



(also with mah new hat. <3 :))






Rawr!

1. Tag 5-10 people (not including the one who sent it to you).
2. Be truthful!
3. Bold all the statements that apply to you.

Info
I am shorter than 5'4.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars. I'd say that all depends on one's deffinition of many. To me, 4 or 5 is plenty.
I tan easily. see lobster
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance. Comes with the territory. Ugh.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses. When I'm not wearing my contacts any how.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercing in places besides my ears.
I have freckles. I really do, just can't see them too well currently.

Family/Home Life
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home. Does Grandma's house count? I think so.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together. 25 years.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I've lost a child. It's ok though, it wasn't mine. And some one found them eventually.

School/Work
I'm in school. Really starting to wish i were though. Ugh.
I have a job.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do/did my homework.
I've missed a week or more of school.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I've stolen something from my job.
I've been fired.

Embarrassment
I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've peed from laughing.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches/staples.
I've broken a bone. *Knocks on wood*
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've undergone a serious surgery. I'd say the hernia thing counts. I was off my feet for quite a bit afterwards to recover any way.
I've had chicken pox.
I've had measles.

Traveling
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.

Experiences
I've gotten lost in my city. Truly not possible
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping. Not yet
I've played spin the bottle. Still, no kiss. Did wonders for my self esteem let me tell ya.
I've drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person whom I first met online. Sort of. he claimed that we met at a Grad party, but I had no recollection of him whatsoever.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night. Not positive, but i'm pretty sure i did.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi. ANd, yikes.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi. Loves it. :)
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now. A couple som one's, and in variouos different ways, not really romantically either.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've gotten divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. I don't think I truly can understand the meaning of love or what it is yet.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. Refer to previous statement.
I've kept something from a past relationship.
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. Does Angelina Jolie count?
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I am a cuddler. I have yet to test this theory
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger. I'd known him for a day, so I guess he technically wasn't a complete stranger any how.

Honesty/Crime
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world. And myself.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
I've consumed alcohol.
I regularly drink.
I've passed out from drinking.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
I've smoked weed.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've eaten shrooms.
I've popped E.
I've inhaled Nitrous.
I've done hard drugs.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick. They're Halls Bursts and they're mints and they're really good. Jeanne had em at the concert too, so there.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder(s).
I shut others out when I'm depressed. Well duh.
I take anti-depressants.
I'm anorexic or bulimic.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. And how.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.
I've attempted suicide. Yes and no.
I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books/graphic novels.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-Bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. what's the point of this?
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs. I try really hard not to, And I DO NOT kill spiders.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly. Hell yea.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person. Hah, not.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar. i wouldn't say a snob, it just irks me sometimes. Don't ever say spayeded in front of me. Grrr.
I am a sports fanatic. Some sports. NFL <3
I twirl my hair. On occasion.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
I bake well. Not oten though.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
I've worn pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love. Refer to a waaaay previous statement.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes. I'm one of those people who laughs so hard when they're trying to tell a funny story they can barely get it out. Yea, I'm that guy. Or, girl, as it were.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts. Even when I reeeeally don't want to.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. Or five, or six. :D
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. And I know about it and can see it.
I am really ticklish. I could be, couldn't really say for sure though.
I love white chocolate. Love is a strong word, but i do like it. i mean, it IS chocolate, right?
I bite my nails.
I play video games. On the rare occasions that I get the chance.
I'm good at remembering names. I'm horrible at it.
I'm good at remembering dates. Good God no.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. In the worst way.

You attract unstable people!

Congrats, you are an 'insane' magnet, and you probably have no idea why. Something about your mix of styles, how you walk not just 'one' lifestyle, but appear to have a foot in them all. To the insane, you appear to be a beacon of hope and they will flock to you, like it or not. But, they ARE insane. Lucky for you, the insane tend to be the best sexual lovers, just the rest of the package deal may not be for you...






facebook quizzes, how loverly. :)

Thursday, March 16, 2006

idk...bored...and depressed..sorta, but with no reason to be...
4:56 PM Current mood: mellow


...the air is crisp, the night is cold, and his arms are consumingly warm and comforting, a shelter from the harshness of not only the conditions, but the cruelties of societal norms and the realities they must endure...and overcome in order to achieve happiness together, but their present state is only a taste of what is to come...the hardships felt by one shall be felt by the other, and some difficulties will be more troublesome to overcome than others, some will be times of pure indulgence in their bliss, whilst others will be full of hatred and anger at others and even one another, other times will be simply monotonous and routine, lacking any luster or excitement, as if the fires that had once burned so fervently in their hearts were slowly dying away into less than a spark and eventually only ashes will remain, a sad reminder of what they once felt so strongly for one another...